It gets harder as i grow older

Still stuck with dilemma in relation to studies and work. Time is a big issue for me. This is the only major factor that is bothering me. I can't stop worrying on whether am i able to cope with the shift work that i'm in. Work isn't that bad for some days but for most days, work is pretty much exhausting. To think I have to do even more OT, to get time off for school. All my future free time with be for school. I can't imagine having to chiong OT and commit to school. Why must i be stuck in this dilemma and till when? :(

I've been applying for numerous jobs but still, none replied. Well, in the early part of the year, i do have a few jobs offer but due to certain factors, i rejected. As much as i want to, i would prefer to be in the government sector. However, this is much tougher that I thought. The number of replies that i received from government sector is much lesser as compared to the replies that i receive in the private sector.

This is going to be the toughest decision I will make to either just go for it or stop chasing my dreams and be contented with what I have right now. We shall see. I won't make any promises but I'm taking a big risk. I have to sacrifice my passion for photography, rejecting future assignments, if there is any. :( Also, resisting from travelling, :( :(  :( just to save leave. The thought of this, is already depressing to me. Haish.

The need to sacrifice, for my future. We shall see..in 2014.

Yours truly,
saf