fuck up

i dont know how bad things can be. i hated the fact that im always lost and clueless on what to do next. somehow meeting you doesnt answer my doubts. as much as this is supposedly going to end, it brings me much unwanted suffering that i can never imagine. its just the beginning and im preparing for the worst. and you, you dont even seem to have faith or hope in me? idk. im trying but you're really not helping. somehow, its sth abt me, im always slow. i guess, my strength doesnt lies here. and when im done with all these, im sure that my strengths will be put into use in other areas.

oh fuck everything, please.

loves,
saf.