Why?

It breaks my heart when i have certain conversations with certain people. As i feel like i should have such conversations with people who are closer to me. But i can't. I've always asked myself why is it so hard to be easier with people who are closer to me?

I lost hope in myself. I don't know what the future holds for me. I don't even want to think about planning it.

Sometimes, i tried expressing but i don't get the kind of response that i expect. That makes me goes back to my shell. My comfort zone. And i know i'm not the only one who faces this and i don't know how long i can keep living this way.

Little2 things saddens me. Maybe its pms?
I dont know but i hate feeling this way.

Yours truly,
Saf