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His virgin ukelele play
Sunday, August 16, 2015 || 10:26 p.m.

A good date for both of us, I planned the itinery and he chose the location. Thank you B for bringing me here and making me laugh at all your antics. Perfect weather and a lovely date, indeed. Loved every bit of it. hee

Yours truly,


Why so angsty?
Saturday, August 15, 2015 || 9:14 p.m.

Past few days, you're down with some illness and I hate to see you in pain. Whatever that you're going through now, I can only pray that god take away your sins and clean your heart, bringing you closer to him. As much as I'm learning about self awareness and social awareness, it is hard for me to talk to you about this.

Every time you're filled with so much frustration and angst, I chose to keep silent because I was afraid that if I voice out, it may lead to an argument and we don't want that to happen because it can get really ugly. Words are as sharp as knives and it gets worst when you're not in control of your emotions.

For all you know you always have the right of say due to the position you're in. I don't want this to prolong. I want you to leave your angst and frustration aside. The past that you've been through might be bitter. You're left behind without much care and concern, I could almost feel how painful it was for you to go through it.

But have you realized that every little thing happens for a reason. Now that you have a family of your own, is this how you chose to live? Why don't you give yourself a chance and throw away all that negativity in you and start a new. If you've lack of love and attention in the past, now is the time for you to shower them with the people you love.

What do you get for keeping so much negativity and animosity within yourself? Even after all these years, you still bear grudges? Tell me, what good does it good to you? Yes, I may not have gone through your bitter experience but I learnt a lot just by listening to it. We cant choose our family members. We are born with them. Some are good and some are the worst. Even so, they're still your blood isn't it?

But this what you're teaching people around you? Ditch your loved ones for the past mistakes they've done. What I can see is the communication is deteriorating as much as your health. I don't know how else to help you or even bring me closer to you. All I wish is for your good well being. The least I could do is praying silently because I can't bear seeing you holding the poison in you. It's killing you softly.

To the one who knows everything, the one who created us and the one who understand us the most, lessen his burden and bring him closer to you. Clean his heart, take away all the negativity within him and fill him with much peace and happiness in his dear heart. Amin..


It breaks me everytime I hear people share their lives so openly to the ones they trust but me on the other side, felt so restricted and always in fear, fear of being judged by no one else but you. :(

I hate this part right here.

Yours truly,

You are invited...
Sunday, August 09, 2015 || 2:02 a.m.

And as we grow old, come whatever..

So anyway, as we grow older, the more we get invitation cards. In fact, this period is filled with endless invitations card, mainly for wedding. Due to our work shift, sometimes, we can't go together. :( Ended up, at times, have to go minus 1. Instead of plus 1. hehehe.

Anyway, congratulations to my dear girlfriend who got hitched today! So blessed to witness this beautiful event. Guess, she's the 3rd among my gfs to settle down. Wow, time really flies and it's like a counting down period.

Surely, there will be times, i'll feel slightly pressure or worried with all these changes that's happening around me. I used to overthink about it but lately, I'm much calm. Everything happens for a reason and when the time is right, it will happen with the right person. :)

Next in line will be Syaz, I guess? Whatever it is, always best wishes to all my loved ones. Today, managed to go B's friend open house, to Aisha wedding, then, a date with dearie! I haven't seen dearie for ages and I pissed her off by being late. So sorry. But it was definitely a nice dinner and so glad that things are getting better on her side.

Alhamdulillah for all the blessings given!:)

Yes, been pretty much preoccupied these days.

Last but not least, thank you lovely B for rushing down to fetch me and being there for me. hee!
Today was such a coincidence that we wore same color code. It always surprises me when such things occur. Much lovee!

Yours truly,

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Samyang Korean Noodle Challenge!
Wednesday, July 29, 2015 || 11:30 p.m.


It was one of our night date and we decided to try this spicy Korean noodle. Yeah, me, myself and I who can't stand spicy food is willing to try this noodle and I have to say it was such a torturous process for me. I could literally feel the heat up in my mind and my tongue became numb and I felt dizzy. Maybe it's due to the reaction of the spicy. Lucky, we got a big bottle of milk. hehehe.

In conclusion, yeah I didn't managed to eat all of it without drinks in between usual B managed to, it was spicy for him too but his tolerance level for spicy is better than me. :(

Enough, that will be my first and last time trying that spicy noodle. It was still an interesting experience though. Go try yeah? hehehe.

Yours truly,


Friday, July 24, 2015 || 2:18 p.m.

Praises to the almighty for giving a little more to me this year. Somehow, thankfully, I managed to get leave for raya after few years of working and failing to get it. Finally, I got it this year and I even managed to drive my family around with the extras that I have. Paps is not at his best condition as compared to other years. So, it's the least I could do to reduce this burden and whatevernots.

The first 3 days managed to meet majority of my closed ones and so that's pretty much of my hari raya celebration for this year as of now. Weekdays, people starts working and coming weekends..i might be working so, not much opportunities to go for visiting as much.

I would like to share my experience of driving a Mitsubishi Outlander, got a brand new car and I totally didn't expect it. I rented car at Chan's Car rental. Upon partial payment of the car, I was asked to choose a car from CAT A and CAT B. CAT A I chose was a Toyota picnic as I drove it before, so I thought it's safer to choose cars which I'm already familiar with. From CAT B was Toyota Estima. Cars from CAT A cost slightly cheaper about $100-200 cheaper as compared to CAT B. Only closer to the date will they inform the outcome of our choices. I was telling B that most probably, they will release car from CAT B as it cost more. Obviously, the company wants to earn more, isn't it?

And...I was right! On the day of collection itself, they called and told me that Estima was not available instead, they upgraded me to Mistubishi Outlander, a brand new car. I didn't have much choices but to agree with whatever that has been offered to me. I was telling myself 'don't tell me it's the huge MPV type.'

So, I went over to the venue for collection and then, they showed me the car. It wasn't as huge as I imagined it to be and I pretty much loved it. Just that, it consumed quite an amount of fuel. Even B enjoyed driving it. hehehe. It was a good experience and the service provided by the company was clear and hassle free. I didn't have any issues with the car as well as the services provided and definitely wouldn't mind coming back again.

For the north siders, if you're looking for a reliable car rental company, you can try dropping by :
Chan's Car Rentals
363 Sembawang Rd, 758379
6753 2536

Yours truly,


Iftar with girlfriends at Citrus By The Pool
Tuesday, July 14, 2015 || 12:13 a.m.

Its been so long since I last saw Minn and this iftar is definitely one of the memorable iftar I had for this year. Our conversations kept on going till it was time for us to part our ways. It's so interesting how our careers could actually help each other in some areas. I'm so blessed and thankful to have friends like these. It's surprising that some are also looking forward in setting up sidelines as a product of interest and who knows we could joint venture someday?


Yours truly,


Wee! Rainbow after rain
Monday, July 13, 2015 || 3:14 p.m.

Been through thunderstorm and my thoughts are killing me.
I pray to seek for solace and contentment from the one and only.
To show me what I deserve and what is good for me.

After enough of letting out, I'm surprised by a gift from my love. heee!
Alhamdulillah, I'm fine, thank you.

Loooove the rose. So jorjeous.

But indeed, it taught me that we are all learning. Learning to understand more of one another.
Certainly need more time.

Ramadan is coming towards the end. :(
All the devils will be booking out soon but I hope this wont be my last Ramadan.
I'm looking forward to do more the next one. Insyallah.

Yours truly,


A day of running errands
Monday, July 06, 2015 || 11:39 p.m.

Having a family is one of god greatest blessing. A supportive and united family is indeed important for the well being of oneself. However, having a big family with few errands to run might be an issue. Especially when one family can't fit into one cab. It could be quite a hassle going to and fro.

Thankfully, I'm able to drive around and so, initially, thought of renting a car for a day but after some words of advice by lovely B, he suggested to get his friend's car instead. Save cost, definitely. Well, I didn't really thought of driving the whole bunch since I got a normal 5 seater car but..somehow or rather, they managed to squeeze at the back with all the groceries shopping and I managed to get the errands all done in a day. :)


The area around kallang wave mall is quite nice to just sit and mosquitoes, as far as I've tried. The thing about chilling out at night is sometimes, it could be quite irritating. We could already found a nice spot but the presence of the mosquitoes just had to spoil it. The other day me and B were just chilling out at around punggol area and end up got bitten by sandfly, we didn't even sit for about up to 15mins!!!

That's how fast we were attacked! Damn it. The itch is still on going till today. Damn. Ended up, went home right after that due to time constraint.

On another note, Ramadan is left only 10 days :( Sad that I can't do much for now. To those who're able to..don't waste these few days left. :))

He's aging, he's gotten weaker. Unable to walk for far distance, will get tired easily and breatheless. He's taking care of his diet but still continuing with his nicotine addiction. Still worries me. I wish for my future one to stop this nicotine addiction too, it won't give any benefit in the long run. :(

Thank you dear almighty for making everything goes smoothly. Syukran.

Yours truly,


Friends like these
Friday, July 03, 2015 || 12:29 a.m.

It's true we tend to have lesser meet up these days but it's perfectly fine because whenever we meet up, things has always been the way it is. No awkward feeling or whatsoever, we can literally just lepak and talk about everything. It's nice that we managed to have this breakfast session together. Thank you dear steph for accommodating to us.

I'm happy for dear steph who will be the first to get hitched. Shall give her best wishes and hope everything goes smoothly for her. hee! in line is..i can roughly assume? hehehe. No names shall be mentioned but again, we all can only plan so much only left with god to decide.

These are the kind of friends that I truly treasure. Not only, we're able to click and tolerate each other's nonsense but also we help each other and give advises when in need. Thank you for the lovely people and I'm blessed to have this bond from puberty period till now. hehehe.

Yours truly,

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Ramadan 2015
Wednesday, July 01, 2015 || 7:03 p.m.

No one can run away from sinning because we are all sinners. Either way we will still sin as long as we're alive but that it's an excuse for us to stop repenting.

Alhamdulillah for this year, some improvement and changes were observed. I'm blessed and thankful for witnessing the beautiful progress. What matters is slowly and surely. Trying is better than not trying at all. I thank god for answering my prayers. All I want is the best for each of ourselves.

In fact, one of my target is achieved this year. Apart from that, rough planning is done and that really helps to ease my anxiety and worry. I've no idea why I was filled with worry and doubtful about it.

Insyallah, things will get better. Soon, sem 2 will begin and it'll be tougher than the beginning but I hope i'll pull through.

I need to sort out and control my emotions, filter these bad thoughts and emotions within me. Throw away the negativity and live life positively.

Yours truly,