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Thursday, October 01, 2015 || 5:55 p.m.

As I grew older, she's aging faster than we expect. Last 2 days was her special day. I took leave, supposedly to attend my classes but I thought, skipping it for family dinner wouldn't harm right? Anyway, it's hard for us to have family dinner so often due to our different schedule. I brought the babes to Bali Thai, except for paps, who's been cranky.

It was a good dinner, Alhamdulillah. When it comes to getting gift, I'm clueless because can't find much unique stuff to get for her. hehe. But ended up I got a simple gift.

On this special, I want to thank god for giving much a caring mama, who never fail to look out for her daughters despite how stubborn or ignorant we are. She's the best model of a mum that I can think of. She's working but never abandoned her duties as a wife and mum. She tolerated people who gave her attitude with much patience and she's always thinking of her loved ones more than herself. She's that selfless.

I pray that you'll always be placed among the good ones, be blessed with health and happiness. Thank you for raising me up, no words or deeds can repay your kindness. I hope one day, if I were to be a mum, I would have such qualities.

Love you, ibu.

Yours truly,

Visit to Bunny and Pony
Thursday, September 24, 2015 || 1:03 a.m.

I saw one of my friend who visited this café and thought that this café has quite an interesting concept in serving cotton candy with waffles. The presentation itself makes it look appealing and so, B being very kind, as always, agreed to this café.

It was quite new, I think, because the last time me and B passed by change village, we didn't realize this café. Indeed, we were right because that corner used to be a pub. I loved the ambience of the café, very cosy. When we visited, there weren't much crowd at all. I was really making it like my own place taking shots and all. A cosy café to sit and chill with the people you love.

We ordered one waffle and 2 scoops of flavours. Their waffles is about 2.5/5, nothing wow. Just that the ice cream flavours, there were some unique flavours. Mine was lavender something, I couldn't recall properly. It wasn't that sweet and I love the richness of the flavour. B thought the lavender taste was quite overpowering..

That night, we ended off with conversations by the beach. I've always loved that! It never gets boring. hee!

Yours truly,


Mardhiah's Wedding and an unexpected surprise!
Tuesday, September 22, 2015 || 4:22 p.m.

Due to my hectic schedule, I hardly have the time to do proper updates.

Anyway, on 13 September, I attended an ex-close friend of mine wedding. The reason why I say ex close friend is because really, we used to be very close during our secondary school years. We had the same CCA, she'll always be there, waiting for me before we go together for our trainings. We shared a lot of common interest and did stupid things together. Bottom line, she's such a good reliable friend. I guess, as we aged, we got busy with our own lives, not as close as how we used to be.

Nevertheless, there is no awkwardness whenever we meet up. We can still talk about anything and everything under the sun. Her wedding was held separately, 2 days. 1 hers, the next day, was the groom's side. Unfortunately, I was unable to attend her wedding on her side due to my hectic schedule and I thought she wouldn't keep track of my presence.

However, my mom attended the wedding with her colleagues as both our mums were colleagues. So, upon encountering with Mar herself, she actually questioned about my presence. That really touched me in some ways, leaving me feeling guilty of not attending her special day.

And so, the next day, I headed down to the East, just to attend her special day on the groom's side before rushing to work then after. Indeed, it was a blessing to witness this blissful moment of hers. I pretty think they're very compatible with each other. May their marriage be filled with much love and joy. Insyallah, amin.

So, school on the other side is going good. It was pretty hectic for the last few weeks, it's draining me. Affecting me emotionally as well. In addition to that, things at home were not going smoothly, everything was in chaos and B was affected too. Despite the tough days, I'm glad to say things are going smoothly now, Alhamdulillah. Thank you god for the strength and patience given.

I did presentation, a final one for this module. Little did I know, one of my team members is a photographer/videographer!! That was such a pleasant surprise. In fact, he approached me and ask me more about my progress etc. Even offered to guide me through. We are all learning and I'm looking forward to learn more, definitely!

I didn't plan to be a photographer or even thought of people calling me as one. It all started as my interest in capturing shots and slowly, people are asking quotations etc I'm thankful for the trust and opportunity given and yes, I know I have a lot of weaknesses in my works, which is the reason I want to learn so much more.

But first, I need to freaking sort my picturessss!!! Too many pictures, 2 hard disk. Damn, I need to be more organize!!

Done for today, looking forward to a date later! :)

Yours truly,

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300915 I Wedding of Elfe + Amylina
Sunday, September 13, 2015 || 2:04 a.m.

Throwback to the beautiful event that I was invited to. B's mum asked to dress according to the color code and I was having hard time finding a nice affordable dress in that color. The event was filled with yummy foods but I was feeling alittle out of place and erm..didn't eat as much as I should. :(

Now I'm feeling regret of not eating more than I should because the variety of delicacies provided was impressive. It was nice to witness his lil bro getting hitched and meeting his lovely close ones. One thing for sure, his mama was very approachable, making me feel comfortable and all.

I shall upload my fav shot for the event in my next post.

'Sometimes, we need to be hurt in order to grow. We must lose in order to gain. Sometimes, some lessons are learned best through pain.'

In conclusion, i'll always pray and leave it to the almighty. If it's meant to be, it will. And if it isn't, I believe god is the best planner of all. :)

Yours truly,


A sweet surprise
Friday, September 04, 2015 || 9:24 a.m.

For the past few nights had trouble sleeping at night. Sometimes, pms can be such a bitch and it could be even worst if some things that doesn't go your way during these bitchy times and it turned me to be a bitch.

I hate it when I'm turning to one. Then, all the negativity starts sinking in and I started to be vulnerable and I can't think of other solutions. My sorrows starts to overtake me and it is one of the worst feelings ever. Because no matter how much I tried to be positive, I cant. In addition to that, not being able to pray is worst because prayer helps to calm dear soul.

I know of course I still can say some prayers without practically doing it but it still feels different.

Sometimes, when I'm so helpless all I do best is to fade away. And just when I was pulling myself away, you came...

And it's the least that I expected. I don't know but I did ask god that to help me feel better because I'm feeling so helpless. Then, I don't know what happened.

It's as if my prayers are answered and love, it healed me.

I came to realize that the qualities that has been missing from the ones who took care of me is the qualities that I'm searching for in a partner. It's true, expectations leads to disappointment and maybe, I should adjust mine.

Thank you dear B, your presence means a lot to me. :)

Yours truly,

The day my childhood close one got hitched!
Sunday, August 30, 2015 || 9:58 p.m.

Yesterday was my first time attending Night Festival and boy was I overwhelmed with the crowd. The layout of the booth and space really need some improvement. It was bad. I think they didn't consider the crowd, having to jaywalk etc In order to witness the performance, some stand by the streets etc. Not much seating places and due to the crowd, can't really enjoy the whole festival thingy.

It was a festival, there's booze and all, that's fine. But drunken people here and there are such an eyesore. You should jolly well know your limits while drinking. Not as if this is a party. There's families etc and here you are drunk and becoming merlion. zzz.

My day started off with meeting my pbg gang! It's been decades since I last saw them and nothing much change, still filled with much nonsense and laughter whenever we meet. :)) Dzuzu was kind enough to fetch me and little did I know, she brought be around Singapore just to reach Pasir Ris from where I was. Butt was sore but it was a learning experience for both of us. ;p

Later in the evening, I went to my close childhood mate, who got hitched. Alhamdulillah for you. So happy to witness her beautiful event. Guess, more weddings to come in time?

On another note, if you don't have anything nice to say. It's best to shut up. I don't wish to be surrounded with people who have so much negativity in them. I shall just mind my own business, and you live the way you've always wanted.

Yours truly,


His virgin ukelele play
Sunday, August 16, 2015 || 10:26 p.m.

A good date for both of us, I planned the itinery and he chose the location. Thank you B for bringing me here and making me laugh at all your antics. Perfect weather and a lovely date, indeed. Loved every bit of it. hee

Yours truly,


Why so angsty?
Saturday, August 15, 2015 || 9:14 p.m.

Past few days, you're down with some illness and I hate to see you in pain. Whatever that you're going through now, I can only pray that god take away your sins and clean your heart, bringing you closer to him. As much as I'm learning about self awareness and social awareness, it is hard for me to talk to you about this.

Every time you're filled with so much frustration and angst, I chose to keep silent because I was afraid that if I voice out, it may lead to an argument and we don't want that to happen because it can get really ugly. Words are as sharp as knives and it gets worst when you're not in control of your emotions.

For all you know you always have the right of say due to the position you're in. I don't want this to prolong. I want you to leave your angst and frustration aside. The past that you've been through might be bitter. You're left behind without much care and concern, I could almost feel how painful it was for you to go through it.

But have you realized that every little thing happens for a reason. Now that you have a family of your own, is this how you chose to live? Why don't you give yourself a chance and throw away all that negativity in you and start a new. If you've lack of love and attention in the past, now is the time for you to shower them with the people you love.

What do you get for keeping so much negativity and animosity within yourself? Even after all these years, you still bear grudges? Tell me, what good does it good to you? Yes, I may not have gone through your bitter experience but I learnt a lot just by listening to it. We cant choose our family members. We are born with them. Some are good and some are the worst. Even so, they're still your blood isn't it?

But this what you're teaching people around you? Ditch your loved ones for the past mistakes they've done. What I can see is the communication is deteriorating as much as your health. I don't know how else to help you or even bring me closer to you. All I wish is for your good well being. The least I could do is praying silently because I can't bear seeing you holding the poison in you. It's killing you softly.

To the one who knows everything, the one who created us and the one who understand us the most, lessen his burden and bring him closer to you. Clean his heart, take away all the negativity within him and fill him with much peace and happiness in his dear heart. Amin..


It breaks me everytime I hear people share their lives so openly to the ones they trust but me on the other side, felt so restricted and always in fear, fear of being judged by no one else but you. :(

I hate this part right here.

Yours truly,

You are invited...
Sunday, August 09, 2015 || 2:02 a.m.

And as we grow old, come whatever..

So anyway, as we grow older, the more we get invitation cards. In fact, this period is filled with endless invitations card, mainly for wedding. Due to our work shift, sometimes, we can't go together. :( Ended up, at times, have to go minus 1. Instead of plus 1. hehehe.

Anyway, congratulations to my dear girlfriend who got hitched today! So blessed to witness this beautiful event. Guess, she's the 3rd among my gfs to settle down. Wow, time really flies and it's like a counting down period.

Surely, there will be times, i'll feel slightly pressure or worried with all these changes that's happening around me. I used to overthink about it but lately, I'm much calm. Everything happens for a reason and when the time is right, it will happen with the right person. :)

Next in line will be Syaz, I guess? Whatever it is, always best wishes to all my loved ones. Today, managed to go B's friend open house, to Aisha wedding, then, a date with dearie! I haven't seen dearie for ages and I pissed her off by being late. So sorry. But it was definitely a nice dinner and so glad that things are getting better on her side.

Alhamdulillah for all the blessings given!:)

Yes, been pretty much preoccupied these days.

Last but not least, thank you lovely B for rushing down to fetch me and being there for me. hee!
Today was such a coincidence that we wore same color code. It always surprises me when such things occur. Much lovee!

Yours truly,

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Samyang Korean Noodle Challenge!
Wednesday, July 29, 2015 || 11:30 p.m.


It was one of our night date and we decided to try this spicy Korean noodle. Yeah, me, myself and I who can't stand spicy food is willing to try this noodle and I have to say it was such a torturous process for me. I could literally feel the heat up in my mind and my tongue became numb and I felt dizzy. Maybe it's due to the reaction of the spicy. Lucky, we got a big bottle of milk. hehehe.

In conclusion, yeah I didn't managed to eat all of it without drinks in between usual B managed to, it was spicy for him too but his tolerance level for spicy is better than me. :(

Enough, that will be my first and last time trying that spicy noodle. It was still an interesting experience though. Go try yeah? hehehe.

Yours truly,