Who/what am i to you?

I should be feeling happy, full of smiles and joy because now that i know you're here.

But im not.
I'm feeling more depressed, devastated and confused than ever.

Im not even sure on how to deal/respond in this situation. This heart is bruised and torn apart.
Is it me? Has it always been me?

Have i not done enough? Being patience and understanding all these months. Im sorry for feeling depressed. Im sorry because i cant help being jealous though i never controlled you in anyway. In fact, i hardly feel jealous at all. Such an irony, that right now im feeling so much jealousy than i ever had all these while.

Yours truly,
Saf.

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